Hi Ron,
I decided to leave the grind of a 9-5 job over twenty years ago, and it’s been quite a journey. I went from being a legal secretary, to being a star background vocalist, to a thought leader, internationally known presenter, author and recovery coach.
Now when I was a background vocalist for Rod Stewart, Bette Midler and many others, it was a dream come true. Until it wasn't. But I was gonna hold on until my nails were bloody because, well... job security, perks, recognition and all the stories I made up about why I couldn't realize my bigger dreams.
I was hanging on to a vision that I had outgrown, and I decided to pull over and park in that vision even though it was draining my soul—and the Universe had to push me out by getting me fired.
The last thing I wanted to do was become a thought leader and an entrepreneur. I’d scream and rant “I don’t know how, “ I don’t want to”, “I can’t” “I wanna be Beyonce!" But my highest and authentic self (God within me), had other plans.
And you know what? Being on my own has been one of the hardest things I have ever done, because it brought to the surface all the unhealed emotions of unworthiness and not being good enough that had been stunting my growth in the first place.
I had to either face my inner boogy-man, trust my talent, my abilities and my higher power or go home. I never liked the saying "go big or go home", but you know what? I get it. Facing your deepest fears when your knees are shaking, heart is thumping, tummy rumbling and your mouth is so dry you can barely swallow in order to BE WHO YOU ARE MEANT TO BE is frigging BIG! Oh yeah ladies - and it's HOT and SEXY!
Getting fired forced me grow and heal in ways I never imagined.
The caterpillar would prefer to stay the same, but when it turns into a butterfly, it's so grateful that it was forced to grow.
How are you doing beloved? Are you parked in someone else’s vision or are you living your authentic life?
| Ester Nicholson Founder of Soul Recovery |
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