Healing the abused little child Within - PLUS!

I like control but it is not good for me to have it at this time of my life. I apologize to anyone I insulted with my Capt. Ron arrogant identity.                                I AM SORRY

                                               PLEASE FORGIVE ME, THANK YOU (FOR I KNOW YOU WILL)

 I LOVE YOU

 

I am working on healing that grief-stricken, angry little kid in me. All that abuse against my feminine part left me (and many men) way out of balance. This Rumi poem says it well:

Birdwings

 

Your grief for what you've lost lifts a mirror

up to where you're bravely working.

 

Expecting the worst, you look, and instead,

here's the joyful face you've been waiting to see.

 

Your hand opens and closes and opens and closes.

If it were always a fist or always stretched open,

you would be paralyzed.

 

Your deepest presence is in very small contracting and expanding,

the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated as birdwings.

 

-Rumi

 

Seeing that "joyful" face more and more, thank you all for your inspiration and support.

To me seeing that "rainbow" at the tip of my nose was quite a wonderful sign - hope to see it most every time meditating.

 

                                                                                                                                                             Much Metta, ron

There's nothing to apologize for on my behalf Ron, but that's so sweet and considerate of you to say so. ( I actually thought it was funny, but I guess perception is EVERYTHING !!! )

 I like that you thought it "was funny". However, there are a few who think I interrupt and talk too much aggressively. I do wish Jane would not have appointed my "facilitator" - bless her well-meaning heart. I am learning so much in this group. Being abused as a child about being "sissy", "only girls have curls", led me to being a macho Capt.. which was my identity for years until recently. I was way out of balance with my masculinity overshadowing the softer female side and that is what that poem was about. Resultingly. I have had more sexism than racism, yet I have sadly been taught both. So being in a group with all you wonderful women has really been a blessing to me. I know I have everything inside that is Perfect - "Love is the Essence of my Being", yet you'll have really helped me realize that even more. To see that Innocence in ALL!

I really appreciate all that you've done and continue to do to honor the sacred in your life. It's a beautiful thing and I thank you for your vulnerability. I fully recognize the greater degree of difficulty for a male, particularly an "old bird" like yourself. ( Thank God that the younger generation of men were given more tools and opportunity and encouragement to use them !! ) It's nice to see those areas of evolution in our society !!  I hope and expect that the Children of Now are more advanced spiritually - at least more than in my generation(pre-baby boomers).

Hope your week flows with serenity and you find yourself at the bus stops at the right time !!

This is such a sweet inspiring supporting letter, thanks so much my dear!  

Much love,

Kim And LOVE back at ya, Beloved Kim - as I said the other night, you have a beautiful aura!